I just want to be normal
I feel so uncomfortable with the thought of going out right now but i feel like i have to and i just started crying for no reason
Why cant i just be a normal person who likes going out on Friday nights without being influenced by mania or medication or alcohol.
Why does the thought of going to be with a bunch of friends give me anxiety.
"your generation is too reliant on technology" my grandpa says. "no YOUR generation is too reliant on technology" i retort, pulling the plug on his life support to further prove my point.
Sometimes you need to remind yourself that you were the one who carried you through the heartache. You are the one who sits with the cold body on the shower floor, and picks it up. You are the one who feeds it, who clothes it, who tucks it into bed, and you should be proud of that. Having the strength to take care of yourself when everyone around you is trying to bleed you dry, that is the strongest thing in the universe.